Private Party

My advice to singleton this Valentines Day - don't wallow, have a private party and make the day yours

Fleeting Forever

Struggling to find other reasonsTo alleviate the pain that you just love for me a seasonTrying to understand why after my initial appealYou fail to feel anything realYou're contempt for me, you can no longer conceal Will you still love me tomorrow?Will you stop this impending sorrow The answer is no - you wont even …

H.D.Y.S.A.P.L.M – Dunno But Boyfriend Helps

It’s been a while since I last wrote anything to post but I thought this seems like the most appropriate place to start. I’m still trying to figure out how to solve a problem like Maria, but I’m coming to terms that this may no longer happen. It’s not that I think things are unable …

Case File No. 10

His just another guy who told me goodbyeWith no malicious intentions to make me cryJust another guy to add to the list of niggas who made me cryAnd bawl to the stage where I was ready to it end it allEchoes of the familiar proclamation that I'm such a nice girl"You're so sweet, you'll find …

Resignation

When I first met him I looked in the mirror and didn't understand what he could see In me, that would make him want this tragedy Now I look in the mirror and I see exactly what he sees in me A catastrophe, I know exactly why his leaving me In complete agreement because if …

U . N . D . E . R . D . O . G

To my lost one I would have changed everything about myself to please youRather than have the self respect or the resolve to leave youLast week, I would have made every concession, But now I have to vie for your affectionNow I have to compete for your attentionThere is no competition, I can't do this …

Dating While Depressed – Part 1

Dating while depressed is just an extremely difficult process and a hard decision to make. The very nature of dating and opening up your heart to someone requires vulnerability and a certain fragility. Allowing myself to be that vulnerable and open while already in a compromised headspace is draining. Furthermore current dating protocols mean everyone …

Summer Seventeen (Repeated)

I let this guy first ruin my life in 2017, it’s now 2019 and I’m still having sleepless nights over him. Is this what happens when someone with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD) meets someone with Emotional Detachment Disorder (EDD) and everything implodes. I have too many feelings, they're all are too intense and his …

How Do You Solve A Problem Like Maria: Friendship

There is a phrase that says "Make new friends but keep the old; Those are silver, these are gold". It wasn't until recently that this phrase resonated me, I've struggle to maintain friendships long enough to test the theory. In fact I write this blog post in a year that I lost 2 of my closest …

When Will We Get The Time To Be Just Friends…?

I think as equality amongst the sexes increases both socially and financially, the nature of the male-female relationship dynamic has mutated. It's more than feasible for males and females to be just friends but friendship is evolving to where the parameters of what defines friendship has eroded. It's more than just either platonic or romantic. …